I played today in my psp using the beautiful

art of Andreea Cernestean with her tube 20-2.

I am also showcasing the wonderful scrap

Without You by Gimptastic Scraps.

I also have a set of snags below as well.

Your intellect may be confused, but your 

emotions will never lie to you. Roger Ebert

Rational thoughts never drive people's creativity 

the way emotions do. Neil deGrasse Tyson

 We saw the band Gemini Syndrome recently in

Hollywood. It was our 3rd time seeing them and our

1st VIP experience. We absolutely love their music.

That night, they performed their song Remember We Die

twice - as part of their full concert & the acoustic VIP.

Both times the song nearly brought me to tears.

I battled depression last year during quarantine 

& after returning to work. I've posted on here about 

my struggles some. In fact, I came very 

close to ending my battle & letting the demons win. 

The song Remember We Die has 

resonated strongly with me. I was fortunate to share a 

bit of my story with the singer Aaron that night .

I wanted to illustrate the song in a tag/wallpaper.

Art by Zindy

Scrap by Rieneke

Wallpaper size 1920x1080

 It's been a year since you left us.

A lot happens in a year.

The wound is still very much there.

It changes over the course of time.

But there is an emptiness there without you.

You'll never be forgotten my friend.

I know you visit from time to time to check

in on us. Until we meet again my friend in 

another life. Our paths will cross again.

 So I'm having a lot of insecurity right now.

And I am aware of this...but not sure how to

deal with it. Especially in the area of friendships.

I don't have many close friendship and treasure

the ones that I do. Its easier for me to make online

friends than in person friends. Not sure why but it is. 

 I always fear that people really don't like me

or I expect them to basically disappear from my life.

Both have happened repeatedly - esp the latter.

I question things - actions & things said. Being an

overthinker doesn't help at all with that.

It's not that I'm waiting for something to happen,

but when certain things do, well it makes me insecure

in the friendship. I've been feeling very insecurity for awhile now.

& I know its a me issue. Just don't know how to work

through it & get rid of it.

 Today I did a tag & matching wallpaper featuring

my absolutely wonderful commission by Queen Uriel.

This beauty of a tube is available in her store.

I wanted a fairy that represents Mental Illness

& depression battle. So many in the world

fight battles with them everyday. I asked for a 

semi-colon as it is associated with the battle.

It represents a reminder to pause - that our 

lives matter and to keep going.

Doodle by Design did a wonderful kit to

match her too. The wallpaper is 1920x1080

& available to download here.

 Our minds can be wonderful things or

dangerous scary places that we reside.

Its always with us & we truly can't

escape it. Oh we can distract ourselves

for awhile from it - but eventually we

will be left alone with our thoughts.

Thoughts that lie to us but sound just

like ourselves - our own voice.

& its damn hard not to listen to that voice.

To not believe what its telling us. 

It truly is a war within our own minds.

& mine has been starting to rage again

as of late. Making me overthink

& to question little things or to doubt.

The rage is quiet yet loud at the same time.

Its hard to hell to quiet that voice -

to ignore what it whispers or screams at you.

& to voice to others close to you what 

it says - or how it makes you feel.

How do you voice the horrible things

your own mind is saying &

making you feel? I try sometimes -

but sometimes its easier to just be quiet.

 When things have been going really well,

but you can't help but doubt it- to 

question it. The darkness is still there-

waiting to breathe again. You don't say a 

word about it. Maybe you don't have the 

words to these feelings.

That happens a lot.

 Yet find yourself starting

to stare down alleyways of your mind

that maybe you shouldn't. 

Or telling yourself that you shouldn't

plan certain things b/c why bother.

The depression monster isn't gone -

just lying in wait.

 I did a few snags tonight while 

trying to work through some emotions.

I thought we need more of these kind

of snags for our community. Life isn't

always kind as the last year & half has shown.

Art is by Anna Liwanag using her tube 114-3.

The scrap isn't available anymore but was part

of the Forever Loved collab for Tonya.

It was available for a limited time.

Artist is currently selling at DAH

 I made these buttons today using the 

Cuddly Rigor Mortis & Karmalized Scraps

Bundle 157. I had the idea when I saw the 

hearts & wording to do some mental health

inspired Mantra Buttons. A lot of us are 

struggling with our mental health & I 

thought the community could use these.

For reminders when we have our bad days.

Life can be very dark at times but with help

& support, we can find our way to the light again.

Artist is currently selling here