Today I did a tag & matching wallpaper featuring

my absolutely wonderful commission by Queen Uriel.

This beauty of a tube is available in her store.

I wanted a fairy that represents Mental Illness

& depression battle. So many in the world

fight battles with them everyday. I asked for a 

semi-colon as it is associated with the battle.

It represents a reminder to pause - that our 

lives matter and to keep going.

Doodle by Design did a wonderful kit to

match her too. The wallpaper is 1920x1080

& available to download here.

 Its been a rough few days for me.

My depression hit a new low this week for me. 

We went out today. I just wanted to stay home

but I went anyways.  My cave is my safe place. 

It felt overwhelming at times..

being around that many people . I'm suppose to

return to work this coming week & that seems

daunting. I don't know how I will handle it

after what happened this past week.

I hate that at times I don't feel like me-

like I can't control my thoughts & feelings.

I become overwhelmed with sadness at times.

Then, other times I see glimpses of myself

- but she doesn't fully stay. No, the demons

of my depression hide her away from me.

I feel broken inside & am unsure how

to fix my pieces. What is the new arrangement

of my pieces in this puzzle? Will my demons

scream like the did? I need to silence them -

to return them to their cage & bury it.

But I feel like I lack the strength within.

It's been sucked away...

CT tag featuring the wonderful art of 

 PinUp Toons using his tube 164-2. I am also

showcasing the oh so pretty IB Sheena Pike

March 2021 Scrap by Ladyhawwk Designs.

Note: The wordart is not part of the scrapkit.

If you carry joy in your heart, you can

 heal any moment. Carlos Santana

I miss you.

Yet I just saw you a few hours ago. 

We're like two ships passing in the night sometimes.

One of us at home & the other at work.

Spending hours & hours apart - this is how

adulting & working happens. Yet for us,

it seems so much worse this time around.

We've been here before in this dance.

The tune has changed & the steps 

feel very new this time around.

I sit here lonely missing you.

Its becoming such a familiar feeling.

Balance family & work they say.

Make time for both.

Yet work keeps us apart...

 The psp community was rocked this past week with the passing 

of our beloved Pinky T, Tonya. She was heavily involved in 

so much of PSP & her loss has shaken many of us to our core.

I considered her one of my closest & dearest friends.

There was hardly a day that we weren't in chat 

throughout the day talking about anything & everything.

While we are still mourning, I wanted to take a moment

to celebrate her creations. Tonya certainly created

such beautiful tags for us. It's impossible to choose 

a few favorites but I selected some which show

how talented & gifted she was in psp. She often

said she couldn't tag gothic but I don't think

she ever truly found something she wasn't 

capable of making beautiful.I also wanted to

showcase creations with a few of her 

favorite artists - Jennifer Janesko,

Anna Liwanag  & Maryline Cazenave.

 We're doing our Thanksgiving later today.

As with 2020, its different this year. My mom isn't

joining us as she usually has in past years. But then 

again, 2020 has changed normal as we know it.

So, this evening my family will have a Thanksgiving

Dinner and enjoy being together. We have things to be thankful

for after all - most importantly that we are healthy.

On another note, having a conversation with my soon 

to be 19 y/o daughter has made me realize a few things.

Her generation has a much better sense of self & 

are very socially aware than my generation was.

I am thankful for her sense of self when it comes to 

relationships & dating. I don't want her in an

unhealthy relationship. I know the damage that

can cause on a person - having witnessed it myself 

growing up. I realized today that our relationship

is changing & reaching another level so to speak.

We had a good conversation today about adult issues

& I really did enjoy it. It was a healthy conversation

between two adults & friends in a way. She & I are no

longer just parent & child...but friends too.

& that my makes my mama heart fill with love

& happiness. Don't be afraid to engage your 

teenagers & grown children in conversation

about harder topics. They might just surprise you

by what they say. And maybe we can learn a thing

or two from their generation as well. 

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! 

 A simple four letter word. 

A word that can be used to describe so

many things in the world by people.

A word that should never, ever be used

to describe a person's appearance. 

Especially by someone's family member.

Let's define it shall we?

According to Dictionary.com, the first definition for ugly is:

very unattractive or unpleasant to look at; offensive to the sense of beauty; displeasing in appearance.

Now, we know that what one person finds attractive another person may not,

that goes without saying. But never shall a person say or imply to 

a person they may find unattractive that they are ugly.

People may have disabilities or physical challenges

in life due to no fault of their own. 

 It is wrong to solely focus on those issues

as a way to determine if they are pretty or not.

And if someone does, they really need to

re evaluate themselves as a person.

Using it to describe a person can hurt them

emotionally & mentally. And it is just plain mean.

To do so to a loved one is cruel & insensitive.

Let's try to be nice humans okay? 

 Sleep.

Restless.

Tossing.

Turning.

Eluding.

Wanting.

Needing.

Exhaustion.

Collapsing.

Eyes close.

Body relaxes.

Mind Rests.

Another day done.

Written 8/14/2020

© Sarah Fiack

 Light.

Grey.

Darkness.

Slivers of light.

Peeking in -

Shattering the darkness.

Breathe.

Reaching up 

or out -

can't tell. 

Reaching for the light.

No!

Darkness disappears.

Surrounded by light.

Too much!

Blinded! 

Chasing & reaching!

For the darkness..

for solace, comfort.

Finding the grey.

Finding familiarity

of light & darkness.

Here both exists.

Here...

I.

Can.

Breathe.

Written on 8/13/2020

© Sarah Fiack