Its been a rough few days for me.

My depression hit a new low this week for me. 

We went out today. I just wanted to stay home

but I went anyways.  My cave is my safe place. 

It felt overwhelming at times..

being around that many people . I'm suppose to

return to work this coming week & that seems

daunting. I don't know how I will handle it

after what happened this past week.

I hate that at times I don't feel like me-

like I can't control my thoughts & feelings.

I become overwhelmed with sadness at times.

Then, other times I see glimpses of myself

- but she doesn't fully stay. No, the demons

of my depression hide her away from me.

I feel broken inside & am unsure how

to fix my pieces. What is the new arrangement

of my pieces in this puzzle? Will my demons

scream like the did? I need to silence them -

to return them to their cage & bury it.

But I feel like I lack the strength within.

It's been sucked away...