Well when I started this blog I wanted to work on being more positive. I am failing at it lately. My inner demons have shown their heads a lot. I find i am being more negative and talking to myself in a way that isn't good. I could of easily kept this to myself but as this blog is part of me, and I wanted to be more positive I felt i should share here. The demons are very cruel when they choose to be. I am very cruel to myself and therefore, I am not the nicest person for my family. So now I must work on being more positive to myself and therefore to others.

The band Otherwise, a favorite of mine, has a song called Lighthouse. In it is the lyric " Trapped behind this tangled steel, at a loss for words,
I don't know how I really feel, did I get what I deserved?
A second chance or a second curse, I struggle to decide."
I was putting stuff back in the fridge & it popped in my head that i got what i deserved - that I always get what i deserve. Then I wondered what do I deserve? I certainly am blessed in life with a healthy family that loves me. We went on a wonderful vacation last month to San Diego. There are plenty of things to be happy about in life. Yet at the time I was certain I deserved nothing but bad. Well time to quit that thinking. I don't need anymore of that. So I shall continue to work on the journey to be more positive.
Does anyone want to join me on this journey? Kind of cheer each other on & be there for one another if we fall - help one another get back up & dust ourselves off to continue?